I Don’t Want To Live Like a Candle

السلام  عليكم  ورحمة  الله  وبركاته

بارك  الله  فيكم

When I got the ideas for my writing especially about Islam precept, I always think, can I do this message? Can I advise myself before other? Can I get benefit from my post? Can I say the truth to myself?
I don’t want to blame other, and advise others directly. I should advise myself first. I will not guide other before I could guide myself. For what I order other to do this, to do that, but I forget myself.
For example, I will not talk about patience, because I’m impatient. I will not share my thoughts about “Anger” because I can’t control my anger well (I’m struggling to be a patient person and to be a muslimah who can control the anger well). I also will not share about marriage, because I can’t give good example from mine. If I have to post about these topics, I usually ask my friends thoughts and will take from other references that suitable with the topics, without putting my mind.

I still remember these verses:

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِيْنَ ءَامَنُوْا لِمَ تَقُوْلُوْنَ مَالَا تَفْعَلُوْنَ. كَبُرَ مَقْتًا عِنْدَ  الله  أَنْ  تَقُوْلُوْا  مَا لَا  تَفْعَلُوْنَ

O you who have believed, why do you say what you do not do? (2) Great is hatred in the sight of Allah that you say what you do not do? (3)
[As-Saff : 2-3]

I lighted surround, but it burns itself.

In other words, I want to say that I don’t want to live like a candle. A candle with its light can light surround, but look it burns itself. A man who always guide others to Islam well, to establish prayer, to pay zakat, to do shaum in Ramadhan, to give shodaqoh and do good deeds, but he forgets himself, so he doesn’t get any benefits from his words, he can’t light himself. He is likes a candle.
I hope I can lighted myself, my family and this Ummah. Ameen!